I miss Tennessee tonight. I miss the way I felt there. The one thing that gave me pause when deciding to move back hear a year and a half ago was the awareness of what I would describe at the the time as a materialistic approach to life. I did not know how deep it ran or how much it would affect me, how much it would wear on me. I never realized in Tennessee that there wasn't much of a class differentiation at least not one that had a real affect on me. (I will allow Uncle Tupelo to explain.) Here, there is an almost palpable anxiety in the air. It says "make more money, drive a nicer car, own a prettier home but above all perform, perform, perform. You must have your act together at all times." I can't stand it. I try to get away from it, to get out from underneath it, but it's just so heavy. I feel like if I could just get back to Tennessee, I could breathe better. I miss the acceptance of my friends. I miss their creativity, their energy. I miss the life I shared with them.
No, I have no plans to move back. This is where the Almighty seems to have us and we have grown here in many different ways. But tonight, tonight I miss Cleveland. I know she's not the sweetest girl but if you live there, treat her right. She deserves it.
dig it.
(Oh yeah, it's nice to be back. Hopefully I'll be able to blog some more but no promises this time.)
7 comments:
I know what you mean bro.. It's one of the more difficult cultural aspect of Northern VA to deal with. I can't wait to combat that facade with radical authenticity.
For the record, let it be known that Tennessee also misses Davis.
I think it was just the freedom of the college life that we all miss. It's hard to be an adult. too hard... Cleveland embodies the simple life. I miss it too.
P.S. you are loved and accepted by US!!!! :)
I know what your saying but I was out of college the majority of time I was in Cleveland and also spent time there as a married adult with a child. So I believe it's much more than a yearning for the care free days of youth. Not that things here aren't good, they are. But I miss my friendships and the atmosphere those friendships were set in.
P.S. Thanks for the acceptance. I need it!!!
P.S.S. Katy says "can't wait till you get here so we can hang out!"
Oh yeah, I forgot you were an adult before the rest of us! :) I think it was becasue one day I came over to the apartment you and brandon shared and your favorite Cheryl Crow concert DVD was on and you were asleep on the floor. You woke up, rolled over and you were sleeping in trash!!!! LOL!!! I will never forget that!!! :)
Well, when Brandon and I get up there it will be like old times!
Tell Katy hi and I can't wait to see her and the girls soon! Oh, and you too David!
I randomly read your blog today. My husband and I live in Cleveland too! Sounds like you went to Lee?
Ya, I sure did! I went there in 00-01, and '06. I never graduated but I loved being in Cleveland! (Well, most of the time:) Thanks for stopping by!
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